I don't know any of the details of your experience, but - the realisation that a place you once considered all but a second home, and people who were practically family, no longer need or possibly even want you anymore is a really deeply painful and shitty one. It took me forever to leave Milliways, even after it was painfull clear that leaving was what I needed to do, because leaving behind characters and people and a place that I had loved seemed impossibly hard.

But in retrospect, I wish that I had made the decision quickly and followed through with it - dragging it out just made that painful period a hell of a lot worse in the long run. I don't know that leaving is the right decision for you, but if it is, then I can all but guarantee that doing it quickly will be easier in the long run.

The important friendships will last, I promise, and - well, there are other games than these. The end of Crowley at Milliways doesn't mean the end of RPing, or even the end of RPing Crowley.

I'm really, really sorry you're having to go through this - I hope this helps, even just a little and - well, I know it's been a long time, but if you want to talk, I'm happy to listen.