sophistry | (no subject)

Behind the unspammy safety of the LJ-cut, the past two weeks or so have set me thinking harder than usual on the subject, and - much as I would give literally pretty much anything to be able to keep playing Crowley, I am wondering more and more if it is not time to just jack it all in and retire him. With pretty much all of his important IC relationships gone/no longer necessary/redundant/easily replaceable/etc., and considering the fact that said circumstances have made it increasingly difficult to play because of 1) the resultant upset/jealousy and 2) the complete lack of... reference? due to other characters in those relationships being Gone, and the inherent OOCness that would be playing without reference to those IC relationships *deep breath*... yeah. I don't really feel like I can contribute anything meaningful to the game, anymore. Hell, look how long it's been since I've been able to entrance-post him.

So.

I really don't want to - RP is my only escapism from [boring angst redacted], but recently, it's just brought me a hell of a lot more upset than happiness.

And it's not like, at this stage, I'd be inconveniencing anyone by taking Crowley out of the game.

So in conclusion, I have spent the day curled up in bed feeling sorry for myself. Woohoo.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I can definitely understand the flailyness of losing important IC relationships. There was even a time when I (briefly) considered retiring Lilly post-gunslingers because I didn't see how I could keep playing her without that group of people. Obviously I didn't, but it was a rough time. There have been times since then when an important group's gone quiet or retired or whatever, and they're not always fun to play through. And there are those times when for whatever reason, one half of a couple disappears and while that sucks, it is possible to find ways around it, like Heater's done with Alanna.

I think what it comes down to is if you're willing, interested and able to do 'pretty much anything' and you put a lot of time and effort into maintaining IC relationships and creating new ones, then you'll find new references and ways to stay playable. As far as replaceable/redundant relationships, I'm not sure I understand what you mean. Given the people you generally play with, I doubt any of them are trying to make you feel either replaceable or redundant even if their pup's circle has expanded while yours has contracted.

It's up to you, of course, to make the decision about how much you want to invest in finding ways to keep Crowley playable as well as how much time and mental energy you have to invest. It's a tough call, so good luck with that.