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[sophistry]

Behind the unspammy safety of the LJ-cut, the past two weeks or so have set me thinking harder than usual on the subject, and - much as I would give literally pretty much anything to be able to keep playing Crowley, I am wondering more and more if it is not time to just jack it all in and retire him. With pretty much all of his important IC relationships gone/no longer necessary/redundant/easily replaceable/etc., and considering the fact that said circumstances have made it increasingly difficult to play because of 1) the resultant upset/jealousy and 2) the complete lack of... reference? due to other characters in those relationships being Gone, and the inherent OOCness that would be playing without reference to those IC relationships *deep breath*... yeah. I don't really feel like I can contribute anything meaningful to the game, anymore. Hell, look how long it's been since I've been able to entrance-post him.

So.

I really don't want to - RP is my only escapism from [boring angst redacted], but recently, it's just brought me a hell of a lot more upset than happiness.

And it's not like, at this stage, I'd be inconveniencing anyone by taking Crowley out of the game.

So in conclusion, I have spent the day curled up in bed feeling sorry for myself. Woohoo.

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[strange-selkie.livejournal.com]

Do what you need to do for yourself, as sad as that would be. I know we don't talk (or RP) much anymore, but your presence is one I'll always pay attention to and appreciate, if that's worth anything.